Crystal R

“You’re worthless! You will never be anything! You will end up just like your mother!!!” All my life this is what I was told, not by some random person, but by my father. Day in and day out I was told these things. When he would get angry he would throw things and beat me. As for my mother, she is a drug dealer. At a young age she left me, my siblings and and my dad for another man. There were times I would sit in my room in the dark wanting to kill myself, but I couldn’t, I DIDN’T WANT TO!! I had a grandmother who loved me and always told me she did. Maybe it was her love that stopped me from doing it. In high school I met this boy. His name was JT. He was on fire for God and it was him who invited me to church. When I said no he would ask again the next week. He asked again and again, never surrendering, even when I threatened to sick my dog on him. “OKAY I’LL GO, JUST STOP ASKING!!” I gave in, but the thoughts of no one ever wanting me and that I was worthless just kept coming, and I asked my self, “Can God really love me?” TURNS OUT HE DID. IT WAS THE CRAZEST THING TO FINALLY BE LOVED!! AMEN!!! I AM WORTH SOMETHING, I AM A DAUGHTER OF THE KING!! AND THE GREAT NEWS IS YOU ARE WORTH SOMETHING TOO!!!!